Changes

Upon arriving in college, many things have happened. God has been working on my heart. I'm still in awe of how much he has helped me these past couple of weeks. It really is true that when you're at your most vulnerable God is with you. I haven't felt this close to him in a long time. With that in mind, I would have never been able to get through my first week of college without him. It was very rough. On the first day of classes, I went to the wrong room and ended up coming in late to my first class. It was Intermediate German 1. My teacher then proceeded to tell us that she was from Germany and talked almost the entire time in German, which I wasn't expecting for the first day. She gave us our homework list; completely in German. I couldn't read any of it. I haven't taken German since my junior year of high school. So needless to say, after my first class I was pretty freaked out. Were the rest of my classes going to be like this?

I ended up dropping my German class the next day. It was just too much stress for me. Obviously, I didn't get off on the right foot. But in the midst of my homesickness, anxiety, and frustration, God was there. A good friend of mine told me to picture Jesus walking next to me all the time. He's always with me. Every day, every minute, every second. What a comfort that is! Another friend told that in the Hebrew language, there's no physical word for God. When they say it, it's like they're almost breathing in his name. Whenever I start to feel nervous or anxious, I focus on my breathing. As I inhale and exhale, I say Yahweh in my head. I don't know what it is, but breathing in God's name calms me down so quickly. It always works. Try it sometime! The rhythm of my breathing set to God's name just fits.

There are still a few adjustments about college that I am not used to yet. I know that it will take some time and that it's not going to always be easy, but I am ok. I have so many people in my life that are supporting and praying for me. It's such a wonderful feeling knowing that they're here for me.